Living in Shades of Gray: My Journey with BPD and Evolve Supply Co.
Hey there! Beautiful souls,
Today, I want to take you on a small journey into the depths of my world—the world of living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). It's a rollercoaster of emotions, a whirlwind of struggles, but amidst the chaos, there's also resilience, growth, and the birth of something truly special—Evolve Supply Co.
Living with BPD isn't easy. Every day feels like a battle against my own mind, against the intense emotions that threaten to consume me. From the crippling self-hatred to the constant guilt that gnaws at my soul, it's a constant tug-of-war between darkness and light. And let's not forget the challenges of maintaining relationships—oh, how they've slipped through my fingers like grains of sand, leaving behind a trail of shattered hearts and broken promises. Which also adds to my Guilt, Shame, and Anxiety.
One of the most challenging aspects of BPD is emotional dysregulation. It's like living life with your emotions cranked up to the maximum volume, with no way to turn them down. The tv keeps getting louder and louder and the remote doesnt exisit anymore. Every slight setback feels like the end of the world, every criticism cuts like a knife, and every rejection sends you spiraling into a vortex of despair. It's exhausting, overwhelming, and at times, downright debilitating. To the point im emotionally numb or mentally paralyzed.
But amidst the storm, there's clarity. There's Evolve Supply Co., a beacon of hope born from my deepest struggles. When I decided to create Evolve Supply Co., I knew I wanted it to be more than just another clothing line. I wanted it to be a platform for change, a voice for the voiceless, a reminder that even in the darkest of times, there's always a glimmer of light, and a place where hopefully some people can relate and not feel alone as I have my entire life.
That's why I chose black and white as the brand colors of Evolve. They're not just colors; they're a symbol of the black and white world we often find ourselves trapped in with BPD—the world of extremes, where emotions run wild and everything is amplified to the nth degree. It's a world of chaos and beauty, of pain and resilience, and through Evolve Supply Co., I aim to embrace it all.
Living with BPD, along with a myriad of other diagnoses including Bi-Polar II, PTSD, Anxiety and Depression, and ADHD, has taught me many things. It's taught me the power of resilience, the beauty of vulnerability, and the importance of reaching out for help when you need it most. It's taught me that recovery is not a linear journey, but a series of ups and downs, twists and turns. And most importantly, it's taught me that healing is possible, that growth is possible, and that with the right support and resources, anything is possible.
And that's why 20% of Evolve's profits go towards covering therapy costs for those who may not be able to afford it. Because everyone deserves a chance to heal, to grow, and to evolve into the best version of themselves.
So, to all my fellow warriors battling their demons, know that you are not alone. You are loved, you are worthy, and you are capable of overcoming anything life throws your way. Together, let's embrace the shades of gray, let's celebrate our victories, and let's continue to evolve, one step at a time.
With love and light,
Tyler Florence
Founder of Evolve Supply Co. 🌟
